robotlion

last night was an outburst of emotion
stupid coffee
and i almost made myself REALLY sick because of that coffee
thank god i drank water and took some meds
it helped alot
but i'm still kinda hopped up
i woke up at six
and pretty much just laid here for a couple of hours
so tonight will be very interesting lol
very.

lets see, i'm wondering what life would be like if i cancel facebook
i'm really starting to hate it.
it's so stalker ish
and there so many things on there that just arent me
and recently i've been feeling pressure to be a certain way just to have people be interested in me
but it's not cool
i'm really NOT that interesting
i'm freaking screwed up in the head
but most of my life i really like
i like taking pictures of bands
i like making videos of life
i love imagination
cartoons are cool
i'm simple. that's it.
i dunno, this is all getting out of hand.
i just need a break. quick fast and in a hurry

So
i'm sitting in my room
weaing my there for tomorrow tank
and thinking about life and friends
and how i have this tendency to feel lonely
i've always had it, it doesn't go away
it could be like that 'hat' that kenny bozich always talked about in his blog
but none the less, i've been feeling it alot lately
in the form of being sort of left out with my friends
like i can never fully relate to any of them
i guess it's ALWAYS been like that, because i take on a lot and i'm into a lot of things
but for once i want to meet someone where they are into a lot of things
where we are into a lot of the same things
where we can share the same brain almost
and i don't have to feel left out
I've been having this desire for something that i don't have now
it sucks.

anyway. tomorrow's formal
wish i was going with menudo! but i'm going with malls
waking up early and making cupcakes...writing story of bcb
then starting to get ready and all of that jazz
i guess...
i'm not really excited to be honest. it's another one of those things that I do that just isn't me.
I like to dance and eat but that's like all the joy i get out of formal
whatever
thanksgiving break is one week away!!!!! THANK THE GOOD LORD.

oh and new band that i'm really into right now
artist vs poet
love them
can't wait to meet them december 5th!!
and the new eatmewhileimhot song all my friends is so bomb
love it! <3
peace.